Reaching Out

[Native Arizona]

Reaching Out



My dear son, how you’ve suffered through all these years
The court dates and long distance has put a strain on us
Whether we admit it or not, time has certainly been cruel
And you father has done nothing but caused you heartache

I know at times that I may have seemed distant towards you
I have yelled and said many things in anger; I’ve made you cry
Hoping for forgiveness while I try to forgive myself, I am pitiful
Knowing exactly what you need but in fear I’m unable to reach out

All these years I have loved you with my entire heart and soul
As have others who live this long distance relationship of ours
Risking our hearts against a father who seeks to obliterate it
By court orders, threats of police actions, and false claims of abuse

Sometimes loving you hurts, and has caused my heart to pause
Though I want to reach out and I want to be close as we once were
Be patient with some of us who have experienced the pain the most
We fear being hurt again as have been done many times before

Please know that despite the risk and the pain suffered from the past
That you are loved more than you will know or can be said in poem
Even if I seem distant or not as emotionally connected like you want
My heart will always look to you with nothing but love and pride inside

[Spirit]

Hi NA, Lovely poem. I'm sure it says it all. Do you think some day you may show it to him?

[Native Arizona]

Next time I see him, he will receive this. Of course, when he reads it he won't want his father to see it but he'll agree.