Bad Mood

[Native Arizona]

A little perspective on how it feels to be in a persistent bad mood.

BAD MOOD

I just can’t take this awful feeling anymore
It’s been a month now and there is no where left to hide
A persistent bad mood just boiling beneath the surface
Stirring up anger, then rage – until control is lost

I feel like I am balancing on the edge of a knife
Flailing my arms trying to keep from going over the edge
Knowing that with one wrong turn someone is going to be hurt
Stirring up anger, then rage – until control is lost

I awaken to a new day but the energy I crave is gone
Fighting for the control desperately needed to make it thru
Or should I say the control is needed so others can survive me
Stirring up anger, then rage – until control is lost

Like a festering wound, this mood progressively deteriorates
Starting with a slight irritation that is rubbed raw in the hour
Growing with passion until it peaks in a cataclysmic crescendo
First stirring up anger, then rage until all my control is lost

[Zooie]

There's got to be a chemical imbalance going on somewhere...it can't be "just a bad day" kind of thing. I hope you can get some answers, it's got to be draining and frustrating. But the poem is a clear take on it, wishing you well, and for at least a way to cope, if not a solution.